"The friendships you make in college will be those that stay with you forever."
I have heard that saying many a time in the past few years of my life, and up until now, it honestly really bothered me. I felt as though people were basically telling me that the friendships I had already made [in high school] were not good enough, that they were inadequate. But now I think I understand it a lot more; after being here at SU for the past month, I have met some really wonderful people whom I hope will stay in my life for many years to come. Everyone here is so easy to get along with, and I love that all of us want nothing more than to just chill with our friends and be happy and carefree. After all, isn't that the point of college?
But, despite all of that, I can't shake the feeling that I am losing the three most important relationships in my life, and those three are you. It's funny how at each stage in your life you get the feeling that "this is all I need to be happy, I have everyone in my life that I need." But then college happens, or moving happens, and then those people who you were completely happy with and used to having in your life are not there anymore. And that can hurt. A lot. Especially when, and I can say that I am partially responsible for this, not very many of us make an effort to really talk anymore. Or well, we do but it's not really in a way that one would like. Like, it's the occasional "Hello, how are you?" or, "Oh I'm doing really well," or "I miss you..." but you know that's never really enough. It scares me that I only talk to you three maybe three times a week now, if that, because I have had enough failed relationships to know that eventually three days a week will turn into two, then one, then five times a month, and so on. That REALLY scares me, because there was a point where you three were my rocks, and I couldn't live without you. I don't want to have to now.
I know that I haven't been the best communicator either, but you have to believe me when I say that I am trying. I am trying. I just want you to tell me the same, because I love you.
Long story short, sometimes I wish I could just go back to the way things used to be.
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~Erin :)
I LOVE YOU! and I will never ever not be friends with you. I promise we shall make a intense effort to talk frequently. regardless of homework :) I wish I could see you but my mother does things without consulting me. I love you and I will always love you.
ReplyDeleteThe love you share with these three friends will always be with you....even when they aren't. That,in part, how you know they are TRUE friends. As you keep growing up, you won't talk as often, or about the same things, but it won't matter because when you do talk you will just pick right up...you won't miss a beat.
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